Monday, March 21, 2011

3-2-1

I’m on the query coaster again. For those of you unfamiliar to that particular thrill ride, well, it’s a series of exhilarating highs and depressing lows. I just started sending my letters out last week, and I should be filled with nervous anticipation, frustration, giddiness, sadness—yep—should have a permanent case of PMS and my moods should be swingin’ off the chizzang.

Sadly though, for the past few days, my mood’s been in a perpetual state of eh.

Yep—eh.

I'm querying! I'm putting myself out there. This could possibly be THE BOOK.

I’m sitting at the peak. I should have my hands up. I should be prepping to scream my lungs out. Shoot, I even had a request already. I should be EXCITED!!!

But I’m not.

Why?

I don’t know. Maybe it’s because I’ve read that one sentence one too many times. Maybe it’s because I’ve been on this ride already, and I’m anticipating the same ending.

Perhaps I’m scared to get too excited, for fear I’ll be crushed.

And that no one will ever experience my babies and fall in love with them like I have.

So blog faithfuls—today I’m treating you to a pep talk. It’s really for me, but I figured you could benefit too.

Grab your iPod, pump up the volume on your stereo. And tune in to a little Katy Perry.

My new theme song—Firework.



Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own


Uh-huh. I’m lighting up—myself, that is. And I'm going to allow myself to GET EXCITED!!!

I can do this. I don't have to be a waste of space. I'm original, cannot be replaced.

And I'm going to enjoy the exhilarating, unnerving, split-your-heart-open thrill query ride.

So, say a prayer, peeps. Maybe two. Or fifty. And if you don’t pray, maybe send a few positive thoughts my way. I could use ‘em.

Well, that and a firework booming in my ear ALL DAY LONG (smile)

How about YOU? Any songs inspiring you today?

13 comments:

  1. Definitely sending prayers and positive thoughts your way! Dig your heels in, stay positive, and congrats on the request!

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  2. Oh yeah, I know that ride. Been on it before, on it now. You described it really well. So thanks for the pep talk. I hope it helps you get excited because it worked for me!

    Good luck!

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  3. Fingers crossed for you! Good luck.
    - Sophia.

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  4. 50 prayers sent your way :) You can do this.
    PS: Good theme song. My most recent theme song is "Looking Out" by Brandi Carlile.

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  5. Let's all get excited together then there's loads of us subbing right now. I'm going to send another one off later today. Fireworks and sparklers, bring it!

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  6. Ooh, great song. Not that this one is inspirational, but if you haven't watched the Glee 'Singing in the Rain/Umbrella' song with Gweneth Paltrow...I suggest you go to youtube and watch it now. Unless you're not one of those show tunes type. I love that they're dancing in water on the stage.

    I'm kind of on a flash mob kick too. If we can't do something alone, might as well do it together. :)

    Good luck with everything! I've never been on that query ride yet, but I hope to be there in a couple months.

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  7. It's definitely hard to put yourself out there again in terms of the querying. I feel ya, sister!! But you're awesome for doing it, and just try to remember to revel in those little victories. Allow yourself to feel the rush of possibility when you hit SEND -- at least for a few minutes!

    And just think about all the awesome ideas you have for other books -- and distract yourself with them!!

    I wonder who turned you on to that awesome soneg, bee-tee-dub? ;)

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  8. I LOVE THAT SONG :)

    And I agree with Ricki--think about all those awesome other ideas, and distract yourself by turning one of them into a BOOK!

    Good luck!!! I've got all my fingers and toes crossed for ya!!!
    xoxoxoxoxo

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  9. It's tough. Querying beats you up. But you do it because you believe in your work. So in your lowest of times, just remember that. YOU.BELIEVE.

    Rejection is totally normal. Par for the course. But with any luck and lots of faith, you'll get a yes. You only need one yes. So hang in there. Sending you lots of positive vibes!

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  10. Thanks for all the well wishes!!!

    Still rockin some Firework. :)

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  11. Big yay for you for having the guts and determination to query and put yourself out there! You go, girl. It's a journey, and you've just taken the next important step--no matter what the outcome. Meanwhile...write something else while you're waiting! It keeps your mind off the past project(s). Good luck and prayers!

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  12. I love the query ride. It's my favorite. Just anticipate what to do when multiple agents are fighting over you. That's my fantasy. Theresa Parks (nick sparks' agent) versus Meredith Bernstein. Hmmmm, which one to pick?...hehe. Enjoy the ride!

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  13. I love Katy Perry more than I like to admit. Sending good vibes and prayers your way. Congratulations on getting on the coaster. Enjoy the ride.

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